Unknown, cherished

It's been a over a week since I've posted, but I just felt like I couldn't. I could've talked about the psychologist appointment Nathan and I had today as per dossier requirements. I could've mentioned the fact that we finished everything due on our end of the Home Study and that we're just waiting for reference letters and the social worker. I could've said that we're completing as much of the dossier as possible without encroaching on the strange "date-window" where the documents can't be more than 5-6 months within the date of the total dossier submission. But, none of that matters comparatively...

On August 12th, I saw a pair of beautiful brown eyes that have crept into my thoughts of every waking hour since. This little boy with dark brown hair and a precocious grin has consumed my dreams of becoming a mama...again...

Last Friday we sent his information off to an international pediatrician who replied within hours asking for more information to give his best assessment as to this little boy's prognosis. Granted, I haven't cared as much about his assertions as I probably should. Hasn't Lachlan defied all the predictions made about him...against him? Why wouldn't this sweet boy from Hengyang, China be any different with a home full of love and a two parents completed devoted (not to mention a kickass big brother)?

Tonight, we got a call from our local, beloved ENT who reviewed his files. He gave honest, yet encouraging assessments. We also finally heard back from the orphanage with photos, current measurements and updated developmental information. It was one hour chock-full of information I've been waiting for since 10 o'clock last Friday...nearly a week! Now, we just pass this information back to the international pediatrician and wait for his updated response.

I have no doubt the doc will be skeptical...despite (or, perhaps, because of) adopting 3 children from China. However, it's up to Nathan and I to decide what's right for our family, knowing that God is in control.

If this whole process were up to me, I'd be fighting tooth and nail for this child. He's had my heart from the moment I laid eyes on him. But I'm confident that God has his story in place, as well as mine. If our tales could intertwine, it would be a joy and privilege. If He has another family in mind for this sweet boy, well, blessed are they.

For now, I'm thankful for what I've seen in the medical notes and updates. I'm confident  this boy has quite a future in store for him and he will always have someone advocating and praying for him in me. Continue on, cherished boy. You are loved and have a life of influence, joy and love in store for you. I will always root for you, whether near or far.